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Title: Those Left Behind: Raison d’etre.
Day/Theme: Aug 14 Raison d’etre. (reason for existence)
Series: Bokurano
Character/Pairing: Kirie, Kazu (Kirie's cousin)
Rating: PG
Notes: for [livejournal.com profile] 31_days. spoilers for Kirie chapters
Archive: LJ | ffnet



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"I've always wondered about the continued worth of my existence. Is it right for me to be alive? Or is it wrong? My life itself is ambivalent. I could be here, I could not. I'm not bothering anyone being here, but I wouldn't bother them if I wasn't either..."

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The musky room had not seen sunlight for weeks, nor had the windows been open to let in fresh air. She sat huddled in the corner of the room, her eyes staring vacantly ahead of her, seeing nothing at all. She barely winced when the drapes were pulled open, the glaring sunlight spilling into the room. Yosuke had been here.

She saw her friend falling over and over again. She had been prepared to welcome death with her friend, but she couldn't take that step. Her friend fell backwards, her arm extended towards her, reaching out for help. She cringed from the look of betrayal on her friend's face.

All she could think of was death. Why was she still alive? Why couldn't she die? She could no longer live in the outside world after she had walked her friend to her death. Her continued existence was meaningless. Her life should have ended.

The house shook. An earthquake? No...the tremors were wrong. Had the black monster come for her?

The window was open. Had Yosuke opened it?

She could see the black monster through the window.

She crawled towards the window, her muscles aching from disuse.

"Come kill me," she whispered, her chapped lips bleeding from the movement of her lips.

The black monster stopped moving. A figure appeared on the arm of the monster.

Wasn't that...Yosuke? Little Yosuke who always needed her protection? Bullied Yosuke who couldn't fight for himself?

Kazu blinked, feeling more awake and grounded than she had ever been, despite the almost fantasy-like sight she had just seen.

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the end

...I thought Kirie fit this theme perfectly, but I don't understand Kazu at all. *sigh* This was meant to be a lot longer, but I ran out of time as usual.

I reread the Kirie chapters...I didn't notice before this that the pilot Kirie fights is the same girl who the anime casts as the class president from Machi's world. :O I kind of like her, though she seems a little...standoffish in the anime. I mean, she doesn't react much about anything.


Only one more day left until I reach 15 of these! I'm entirely running out of inspiration (and time!) though. D: I'll probably stop after tomorrow. I haven't covered all 15 kids yet though, since I included Seki and Dung Beetle too. Hm, what to do...

Date: 2008-08-16 12:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] slashed-dream.livejournal.com
Hehe, you can always write on later :3

Haha, it's the same girl? I'd never have noticed!

You could still write fictions for the remaining kids if you want to and just not do it for a challenge? It would involve less stress |D